"Do you remember when we were just kids, and cardboard boxes took us miles from what we would miss? Schoolyard conversations taken to heart, and laughter took the place of everything we knew we were not....
I wanna break every clock, the hands of time could never move again. We could stay in this moment...."
Inevitable- Anberlin
Have you ever had one of those moments where you've gone back and reflected on your
life? When you were
7 and nothing mattered except your
after school snack and what
games of make believe you were going to play in your tree house?
Or when you were
10 and you tried to act all "
cool and teenager-ish" and you would a tank tops and sunglasses on and ride your bike with your best friend to the
Sno-Shak....trying to
impress people?
Or when you're
13 and in that horribly
awkward stage of life....and were trying to desperately give something for people to know you by besides your
braces and
glasses and
acne? (Thank heavens on the acne part: I've been blessed with great skin. :])
Do you remember your first time a boy asked you to
dance? You first high school football game?
Homecoming? Your first crush, heartbreak,
kiss, boyfriend, break-up? The first time you
fought with your friend? All the talks and late nights? When you
GRADUATED FROM HIGH SCHOOL?
Well, I sure do.
I have spent every summer back east here in the town of
New Canaan, Connecticut my whole life, along with many other towns back east. It's pretty much become a part of me. People in my grandparents ward came up to me today and knew me by name, and asked how my life was going.
Semi-strange.
Anyways....
Coming back here always make me go back to when I was little and catching
fireflies, or the
4th of July party up in
PA, or reading
Harry Potter in my grandpa's office, or trips into
NYC to go to the huge
TOYS-R-US store, or other stuff....and in a way it's made me realize that
I don't want to grow up.
Okay. That's not what I mean. It's
fun to grow up. Like really, I love all the stuff that comes with growing up, like
driving, dating, parties, weekend get-aways with friends....all that stuff is
AMAZING. But do you just ever wish you had the
chance to be a kid again? That you could just go back to
worrying about nothing and loving life?
I
miss those days. Especially watching Nick run around. It makes me want to go back sometimes.
But alas. I will
never be able to. So I just look back and realize on how it's become a
memory, a
part of me....something that I've built myself off of. And what I can look forward to in the future.
These two cities are just a part of
who I am. They've helped shape me as a person. It's nice to get away from the craziness of life...and
forget about a new problem...and just relax. :] ah. I'm excited.
"Amazing how life turns out the way that it does...."