Kids.

"Do you remember when we were just kids, and cardboard boxes took us miles from what we would miss? Schoolyard conversations taken to heart, and laughter took the place of everything we knew we were not....
I wanna break every clock, the hands of time could never move again. We could stay in this moment...."
Inevitable- Anberlin


Have you ever had one of those moments where you've gone back and reflected on your life? When you were 7 and nothing mattered except your after school snack and what games of make believe you were going to play in your tree house?

Or when you were 10 and you tried to act all "cool and teenager-ish" and you would a tank tops and sunglasses on and ride your bike with your best friend to the Sno-Shak....trying to impress people?

Or when you're 13 and in that horribly awkward stage of life....and were trying to desperately give something for people to know you by besides your braces and glasses and acne? (Thank heavens on the acne part: I've been blessed with great skin. :])

Do you remember your first time a boy asked you to dance? You first high school football game? Homecoming? Your first crush, heartbreak, kiss, boyfriend, break-up? The first time you fought with your friend? All the talks and late nights? When you GRADUATED FROM HIGH SCHOOL?

Well, I sure do.

I have spent every summer back east here in the town of New Canaan, Connecticut my whole life, along with many other towns back east. It's pretty much become a part of me. People in my grandparents ward came up to me today and knew me by name, and asked how my life was going. Semi-strange.

Anyways....

Coming back here always make me go back to when I was little and catching fireflies, or the 4th of July party up in PA, or reading Harry Potter in my grandpa's office, or trips into NYC to go to the huge TOYS-R-US store, or other stuff....and in a way it's made me realize that I don't want to grow up.

Okay. That's not what I mean. It's fun to grow up. Like really, I love all the stuff that comes with growing up, like driving, dating, parties, weekend get-aways with friends....all that stuff is AMAZING. But do you just ever wish you had the chance to be a kid again? That you could just go back to worrying about nothing and loving life?

I miss those days. Especially watching Nick run around. It makes me want to go back sometimes.

But alas. I will never be able to. So I just look back and realize on how it's become a memory, a part of me....something that  I've built myself off of. And what I can look forward to in the future.

These two cities are just a part of who I am. They've helped shape me as a person. It's nice to get away from the craziness of life...and forget about a new problem...and just relax. :] ah. I'm excited.

"Amazing how life turns out the way that it does...."